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This is not fluid – it is jumbled – but I wanted to get it out…  {B} and {W} are his kids, my cousins – didn’t know how they would feel about having their names in here…  I wish this picture showed those beautiful ice blue eyes of his! I loved my uncle Carey always……

This is a little declaration about me…  free form style… I am an introvert. I will not try to be an extrovert ever again.  It’s too tiring, too hard and too stupid. I’m not shy. I’m not reserved. I’m not a bitch ….(mostly) I don’t like small talk. I’m a decent conversationalist in small groups.  I can talk…

An update on my new job.  My new job – which is becoming me again – a healthy, anxiety free me – has been interesting. I have been taking my shakes (STILL LOVE BTW – YUM) I have still been pursuing my goal of becoming a black belt (I have 4 testing cycles left, barring…

First of all, let me start out with a couple of quotes from my son on Christmas morning… At 7:20 am (can you believe we got to sleep that late?) “Mom, Dad, there are so many presents under the tree… and I think they are all mine…  come look” He put all of his gifts…

I have been quiet.  Probably too quiet. I don’t think anyone around me REALLY knows how close I have been to losing it.  I have been hanging on with everything that I have.  I want to scream.  I want to hide.  I am probably millimeters away from springing that last thread that is keeping me…