An update on my new job. 

My new job – which is becoming me again – a healthy, anxiety free me – has been interesting.

• I have been taking my shakes (STILL LOVE BTW – YUM)
• I have still been pursuing my goal of becoming a black belt (I have 4 testing cycles left, barring any disasters of no changing my belt until I can get my belt)
• I started taking Krav Maga (No – I’m not like Ziva yet, but I can see that I could be… sort of… maybe… in my head…  )
• I’ve been better about not eating as much sugar at night.  My goal is to cut it out completely – but let’s be realistic here!

As I type this, I am in pain.  Exercise is great – and I’m hoping that in losing this extra weight, I will make things better in the long run – but damn – I’m not 20 anymore – though I actually think when I finish this challenge – I will be in better shape than I was then! (It could happen!!)…

Here are the things that need to get better STAT:

• Shin splints gone when this extra weight isn’t pounding on me.
• My shoulder pulled out of joint from the knots in my muscles (pulled muscle exacerbated by anxiety – getting massage therapy for it)
• My pelvis pain gone.  Is this caused JUST by the weight?  Last night in Krav class, my hip was ON FIRE – really hoping the weight change will fix this.
• And just the general OMFG ‘extra’ pain that comes with weight and age…

On another note, got to wipe some mommy guilt away.

I realized that I do not really remember anything from when I was young…  and I was commenting to my son how much we take for granted how nice bedtime is now…

Him:  “What do you mean?”

Me: “Don’t you remember the yelling?  The closing the doors to keep you in your room, with you pounding to get out?”

Him: “No”

Me in my head “oh Thank God….”

(The drama was short lived – we finally decided to ask for help and started our night time routine – Stop all stimulus 1 hour before bedtime and create a routine…  and IT WORKS!)

Now, just need to get him to get through a school day without getting in trouble! (It could happen!)